It has been months since I blogged. I am not really sure what caused me to derail. I went and had a wonderful visit with my Aunt Twila back in March and didn't blog while I was there. It seemed from then on I stopped. I got out of my routine.
So, today I will begin again. Today was a very big day. Jeff and I celebrated our 23rd wedding anniversary. It seems like yesterday that we walked down the isle and began our life together. We now have three incredible children together and we love each other more now than ever before. Today was also Father's Day. Jeff is the best Father in the world. I am so thankful for my Daddy. He was a Godly man and I am thankful for his love and Godly direction in my life. He made sure I was in good hands before he left to go to Heaven.
Today we began at Church with Pastor John Meyer at Fellowship Bible Church of Venice. We went to Church as a family, which was so nice. They honored the graduates today and I was one of them. It was such an honor. We celebrated Fathers today and our 11th anniversary as a Church. The Church first service was actually on June 16th. They had a cake after the service. After Church we went to lunch at Sonny's BBQ with some dear friends Matt, Laurie and Nathan Phillips. Jeff, David and Daniel went to the movies and Jannine and I ran home to finish things up for Father's Day. The boys came home after a fun time at the movies and Jeff openned his Father's Day gifts. We had a great time.
Our family has been going through a lot especially over the last few days. David has been dating this young lady Lauren for over four years. They started dating March 20th when they were only 16 and still in high school. She was part of our family. I really thought they would always be together. Tuesday night David was over there, (as he always is) and came home so he could go to bed. That night just a short time after he left the house, she sent a text and broke up with him. He has been crushed. As a Mom, it breaks my heart to see him struggle with this overwhelming grief. I have been crying with him, praying with him, loving him and just trying to get him through this most difficult time. His Dad has been talking to him and helping him. Daniel and Jannine have been giving him extra time and love as well. As tought as it has been, it has really brought our family even closer together. David said he really got a lot out of the message today at Church. I was really glad that he did.
Tonight David went to the Tampa airport with his buddy Derrek. It really did him good to get out and be with friends again. He is going to be working on his relationships with friends, his work and getting focussed back on school and his dreams. Tonight David told me that he informed Lauren that he is done. He gives up! He told her that she can go her own way and he will do the same. He wasn't crying ... he wasn't upset ... he was strong and certain. I started crying I think from such relief. I didn't know how we would ever get through this.
Friday night I got a letter from a distance cousin and found out that her son (the same age as Daniel) died in a car accident. All I could think of was loosing my boy. He was so upset I didn't know what he would do. It crushed me not to be able to make things all better for him. I can't imagine loosing a child to death. My heart aches for my cousin. There is nothing that can be done to bring him back.
On top of everything else we received a letter Thursday informing us that the house we are currently living in is going up for auction July 8th. We knew it was coming eventually but was praying we had more time. I haven't told the kids because I don't want them to worry. I am beginning to pack things and organize things. Our family has been uncertain about our living arrangements for almost three years now. God has provided and I know He will continue to do so. I really don't want to move again but I know that God will take us to the next place we are to go. It is scary ... it is uncertain ... but God has us cared for that I am sure of.
As we are going through things I have been reminded of a wonderful verse, Jeremiah 29:11. It says, "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Thank you Lord for your promises. Thank you that you never change! I love you Lord. Praise Your holy name.
